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Hmm been awhile since i update my blog as it's defintely a miserable month for me till i have lost the touch of being able to update it. Sorry peps. =(

Haix, it 's defintely a somewhat stressed and unnerved by some pending situation for todaY. Why would i say that? Well, while others may be anticipating a very unpleasant and difficult mindset towards that situation whereby i'm going to elaborate. Trust me, i suck up at being a boyfriend. Yeah that's me, who else could it be? I suck at being able to make other party knowing the real me nor my thinking. It just makes things worse. I hate it and i hate myself, pathetic me isn't it? Hahx. If thats what fate wanan play the game, so be it. =) Do i look like i care? Freak off. It's too coincidence for all to happen at a time. Stress arh!!! I have broke the belief of her towards me. I have never see her flaring up so, not even once for the moment we have, being together . Well supposely was to go check-up for medical health purpose, but suay de is company msg me to work tmw, kaox, ni na lei, of all weeks of my working days with the company, it randomly ask me to start work tmw on firday. x.x it held up my check up cos i have 2 option to goes with, 1) choose not to work on roadshow tmw, and go taka work best denki. 2) work roadshow for them and weekends continue on my fav usual place, Courts Amk. Of course i would choose option 2 and sacrifice the check-up cos the taka best is so far away from me, end up she was angry upon knowing, oh my god, i regretted doing so as i dun wish to see her to be angry over the issue. What's pain me more is that i know she is doing so cos she is worry about my health. She persist with smile though angry, x.x really sorry towards that. Secondly, it's about my ex stuff, well those kaki and classmates of mine, i am sure you guys know the situation if i'm going to elaborate. I guess all those terms of friends i mention above, you guys know about my that particular ex right? She used to store her name as "老婆" in my hp Nokia 6670, and when i bought new hp, i just transfer the contacts over to the sim card. It have been changed since i change my hp to w880i. But when i m using Nokia N80, i just copy and paste of the contacts from the Nokia 6670 sim card to and the "老婆" was transfer once again to the hp, thats why alot of people came across when they saw my hp, but you guys know theres nothing between me and her, just take it that i m lazy. Lazy do kills on such circumstances. =( And during all this while, that ex have been msging me, and everything of such stuff, i will convey the message to my dear, but nevertheless did i mention of whats the content likes of what she sent me. But neither will i rmb the msg content and i will just brush it off lightly as the only msg content that will makes me rmb in heart, is that very unique one particular her. But i didnt delete it off those msg as it's normal sms to me as usal, ,as alot of sms, even normal frenz's sms, i would either forget or lazy. That's when she wants to check my hp's content, i even show no hestitation to dare her go along. I even told her that i have did nothing that let her down, so just go ahead and check, Kaox, but hor, i realise it later that those msg wasn't deleted and those msg kills off me and given me 2nd big Cross X for the day. Wah wah wah lau eh.. Upon knowing this, i wanan try to explain to her but cat caught my tongues and i hate IT, it always fail me whenever i need my tiny pea of brain to do the generating words, anyway if i were her, i would choose hard to believe it too. Alright, never will i be shy enough to declare it here that i love her very much just as much as i could give. All the while on the journey of sending her home, i would just stare at her blankly like as if like some idiot, i know the situation of her feeling isn't right, but i just wouldn't think of a better way to make her understand of what i really meant. Haix i m such a failure. Pathetic chap. I have let down my belief of making her staying happy all the time, isn't would be the best of what guys should do for their love one.

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Happy 2month AnniversaRY

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went to national musuem for some time killing leisure, and whats important, i enjoy the presence with her around.

No camera shot please, erm hem!!! =p



Thats the place where i got the trap of soaking my handphone pouch onto the water surface.




A dinner meal with her at pasta mania.