Saturday, August 14, 2004
These few days I have been feeling so down... Out of sudden, I feel so depressed... and can't concentrate on what I am doing... Funny things happen to me... which is I few days always stare when talking to people... Not only this, I felt so listless... I feel tired, but can't seem to rest well... Worst of all, I am beginning to hate food... No appetite... More worst than last time... which is phobia for food... Even my mum I did not let her know of this... Even I force myself to eat... I will end up vomitting sometimes... which is quite unbearable and uncomfortable... Now, during studying in ITE, it boost my determination to get better results then in the past... I am trying to become competitive with others... which make me very stressed... thats why I felt study is more important... Without study I will be nowhere in society... I live by a dream, which is to set up my own business in the future... I always wish to study at overseas country which is not near singapore... Such as Spain or Rome... But if really want to study overseas, my mom would only allow me to go as far as Australia only... Having a dream or planning will enable me to motivate myself... Only a person changed me during this two years... Which I know through by internet game... She used to give me advice when I quarrel with my mom in the past... Now, my mum and I are in very good terms... Even though I think she is just entertaining :P.. But I took it seriously.. I hope that she will be happy always... and score well for her O levels... I share the same type of cartoon character with her... which is Garfield... But i felt that she and I are worlds apart... As her knowledge is far exceeding me...Even though she is 1 year younger than me... but she seem to have more experience in life than me... Thats why I felt I am a failure in my life...
Ended the storytelling at -->7:57 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2004
A DreaDFul Day....!Freak isn't it?
Today again everything seem fine until something coped up....a mysterious lame guy use my blog to link to my dear website to add total of 5 tags to her...-.-''That thief is realli a damn pig with a slimy brain who wrote this during my school time...Dun ned say lor...that guy sure is from ite 2 lor...thats why time so flexible....YawnZ....That guy know it for himself...
Ended the storytelling at -->4:35 PM
Hmm...haha life for me today is still acceptable.. compared to those days when I was faced with just my stewpid project..kind of stress as i currently have quite alot of project to be done...Practical and theory exam is all cramped together and sometimes i find hard to cope....not only coped with school work but stressed with my cca...i am currently serve as a cadet lieutenant in ncc...this few week is filled with alot of activity such as the preparation of combined school orienteering trial-run program....My school teacher have been scolding me for neglecting my own cca in my own school which is photography....
Ended the storytelling at -->4:17 PM
Secrets Here
--SECRETS:--
Facts: 1) Why do i keep staring at you? Ans: I am being appreciative of your presence and thinking of how lucky am i to have ya.
2) Why do i sometime sound less enthu in the topics? Ans: I am interpreting what you said and thinking of your presence at the same time, every single words you say, its defintely stored in my brain =)
3) Why do i love to stroke your hair so much? Ans: I wanan to tell you how much i love you and how important you're.
4) Why do i sometimes out of sudden stare into your eyes? Ans: I am wishing that you are mine for good =X
--WISHES:--
A New Hp
A new mp3
New Accessories
Oversea Trip
Save $1k on the month of January
Marrying her =)
New clothes
New shoe
GPA Grade Increase
